Every day is a fight. Every moment there is a choice to be made. I do not just wake up believing that Jesus will be enough. I do not get dressed and go about my day with hope in my heart and joy in my step…just because. No! Does anybody? Maybe…but the reality is, the fight for my affections begin as soon as I am awake and continue off and on throughout the day. The choice to put on “eternal lenses” is a constant fight. Believing the promise that Jesus will be enough..is a daily fight…and as far as Hope and Joy, those don’t just happen either. I am a mom who wakes every morning to the reality that the battle is real and the fight is not over. I wake each morning with a heavy heart knowing I will walk by an empty room, see a bed that hasn’t been slept in for months and clothes that haven’t been worn. Every morning I am reminded that death stole something from me that I will never get back this side of heaven… And then the “fight” begins!
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. But Jesus…But Jesus…Yes! Jesus has come that I might have life and have it abundantly!! Jesus has been enough! He is enough! He will be enough again…today! Jesus, Jesus, Jesus…. The struggle within..”Why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad? Why?… But, I will put my hope in God! I will praise him again-my Savior and my God.”(Psalm 42:5,6)
Please Jesus, help me to remember that what I suffer now is nothing compared to the glory you will reveal to us later.(Rom. 8:18) You tell me in Your Word that my present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Oh, yes, they are real..yet they are producing for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever.(2 Cor. 4:17) I Believe! Jesus, help me with my unbelief!
Today I will believe with confidence, that because of His grace, I have been declared righteous and will inherit eternal life.(Titus 3:7) I will look forward with hope to that wonderful day when the glory of our great God and Savior, Jesus Christ will be revealed!(Titus 2:13)
This kind of “preaching to myself” usually happens before I even get out of bed, and then again and again and again all day long!! And I can say with absolute confidence, when I call upon the name of the Lord, He listens and He hears me. He holds me and He walks me through the suffering, the pain, the tears and the heartache of missing Warren. It’s not always pretty, and the ache often threatens to take me down…but even down at the very bottom of my grief my Hope in Jesus is SURE and STEADY!
Nearing the ‘one year mark’ of Warren’s death I find myself looking at pictures and thinking…”this time last year”. It’s crazy to think that as November 24th,2015 comes and goes, we enter into a different phase of our journey. There will no longer be memories of ‘this time last year’ that include Warren on this earth. Crazy, just crazy!
Labor Day 2014…
However, I was also reminded this week that our future will be far greater than our past! I am part of something Jesus is doing, and He will prevail!! The possibilities are endless when Jesus is in the story. The world would say I have lost, but Jesus, eternity, says the best is yet to come!!
Nothing here on earth will be our ultimate consolation. Our ultimate consolation is eternal! As long as I keep my eyes fixed on this promise, I believe that I (we)can become less and less devastated because… at the end of the day something better is coming! Praise God! He is coming back!
Missing you so much…We all are! Love you, MORE
Below are links to 2 messages I listened to this past week that were a huge encouragement to me: