I Can’t Help But Wonder…

3/2012

I miss this freckled face boy every day…and my heart aches as he would have turned 17 on March 23rd

Warren went to heaven on November 24, 2014..He was 13.

Around his birthday, more than any other time, I wonder more about what he would look like and how our lives would be different if he were still here.

 

Wondering can be painful, as my thoughts drift toward the things that will never be…

Would you be dating?  Would you be playing a sport?  What kind of car would you be driving?  Would you be tall and skinny?  Would your hair be long or short?   Who would your friends be? What would you do for fun on a Friday night?  Where would you want to go to college

I also wonder about Heaven.  I wonder about you in Heaven and what that might be like.  I wonder about that day … when I will see you again…

And then I wonder….

I wonder how my life would be different?   Would I really know Jesus like I do now?  Would I undoubtedly know and have experienced true peace?   I wonder…Would I cling to His Word like I couldn’t live without it ?  Would I genuinely long for Heaven or still be trying to find contentment in this world? I wonder …..would I understand wholeheartedly the need to strive for him? Would I truly know what it means to set my eyes on things above?  

I wonder if my anthem would unquestionably be ‘Jesus Is Enough’ & ‘Heaven Is Better’?  Would my hope be in Christ alone?  

I wonder COULD I really, undoubtedly, truly, genuinely, wholeheartedly & unquestionably know the Jesus I know today outside of my suffering?

As I look ahead to Easter, the cross, the death, the burial and the resurrection…I wonder can I like Paul, consider everything else (the satisfactions of this world) worthless when compared to the infinite value of knowing Christ Jesus?

I once thought these things were valuable, but now I consider them worthless because of what Christ has done. Yes, everything else is worthless when compared with the infinite value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have discarded everything else, counting it all as loss, so that I could gain Christ  and become one with him. I no longer count on my own righteousness through obeying the law; rather, I become righteous through faith in Christ. For God’s way of making us right with himself depends on faith.  I want to know Christ and experience the mighty power that raised him from the dead. I want to suffer with him, sharing in his death,  so that one way or another I will experience the resurrection from the dead! Philippians 3:7-11

These are Paul’s words not mine.  I want to be able to proclaim like he did, but if I’m 100% honest I  wish I could have all of Jesus AND Warren.  I wish there had been another way… A life of little suffering… and certainly not the kind of suffering that comes with the death of a child.

But like Paul and like Jesus who set his face toward Jerusalem (Luke 9:51) I want to position my eyes upward.  I want to press on, straining forward to what lies ahead -Future Glory!

As we observe this Good Friday, pondering the cross, the brutal death of our Savior…For me and for you…I wonder what it must have been like for him?  Scripture says he was greatly distressed and troubled, his soul was very sorrowful, even to death.  He fell to the ground as he prayed and asked the Father if it were possible the hour might pass from him. (Mark 14:34-36)

As I wonder… I set my eyes on the cross.  I humbly position my heart today to pray.  I can’t really answer all the questions of my wondering, but I do know this…I’m changed because of my suffering and how God in his infinite grace and mercy meets me there…. And because of Christ’s death on the cross and his resurrection, I have hope.

What do you wonder?  I pray that in your own wondering, you find the beautiful Hope of Jesus Christ…

Giving Your Heart and Head Time to Catch Up…

 

Harvey 

…As I scroll through Facebook, I continue to see pictures and stories of how flood waters have violently left an unwanted mark in peoples lives.  Neighbors who have lost everything…. homes, cars, and other personal belongings.  The devastation has been unreal, and yet SO VERY REAL TO MANY!!

As heart breaking as it is, there are also stories and pictures that are a wonderful illustration of  strength, community, and redemption….It’s not going to happen overnight, and it won’t be easy, but we are HOUSTON STRONG! 🙂

There are no words to really describe what people are going through or what their “new normal” is since Harvey…because, although my heart knows loss, it’s different, and I can’t pretend to understand what people are feeling at this moment…and I’m just so sorry.

 

My Personal Storm

I recently explained to someone that on August 21,  Grace started school, 9th grade, High school, without her brother…A new schedule, a new season…Adjusting to new days without Warren.  This will be our 3rd (school) year.  With time, practice and lots of prayer, we are figuring out how to use certain “tools” to protect our hearts and push through the hard!

So, when Harvey hit….and school came to an abrupt halt, my heart and my head were thrown for a loop.  Literally a storm hit our city and my heart all at the same time. I must  confess that the storm and all the pain and suffering around me has been a trigger, and my heart misses Warren so terribly…More than usual, and its been difficult to shake..

However, I am realizing, that although it’s unique for all of us, people are hurting and trying to make sense of their current situation…and wondering when/if things will ever be normal again.

Truth & Encouragement

In a message given by our pastor after the storm, he said something that I needed to hear and wanted to share …. Not that you need permission from me, but maybe you need permission from you….

It’s OK to grieve over the loss of your “stuff”..your house, your things, the way things used to be.  

It is not materialistic to walk into your house and feel sad about the things that are ruined or dirty or missing.  It must be a terrible feeling to walk into a place where you once felt safe and comfortable, have snuggled on the couch and watched movies, raised a family, gathered for holidays, celebrated birthdays..and see such disorder.  It’s like someone came in without permission and invaded your personal space…

I’m a very sentimental person…and especially since Warren’s death, there are things and places, and memories of how life used to be (should be) that are very special to me.

Give yourself the freedom to grieve.  Allow yourself the opportunity to feel the pain that comes with loss..even the loss of things.  Remembering too, that this process is different for everyone.

I keep hearing, “this is not a race, its a marathon.”…Such Truth!!…..It’s going to take time! Your heart and your head need time to catch up…It’s not always.. “pull yourself up by your bootstraps and charge forward…”

One of my favorite texts to receive is one that a friend or family member will send reminding me ..”we are still with you..”  I’m learning that not all of us are “first responders”…but this road will be long for many and there is a lot of work still to be done.

I still Believe He Is Good and His Promises are True

The bible talks about the various trials that we will endure as Christ followers.  We are not to be surprised by them.  It is in these times of great difficulty that I pray our faith is increased …I pray that we remain steadfast.

I can’t say it’s not a little messy walking out our faith in the middle of pure exhaustion, uncertain times, and heavy hearts…but I do know that at the end of the day…Jesus is enough!

There will be days when we feel like throwing our arms in the air and shouting, “I can’t!” ..and go ahead…Do it!  You’ll feel better!  But in that moment of complete desperateness, I believe He reaches down and strengthens our weak and feeble hands and makes straight our path.

Yes!  I really still believe this ..and I do not pretend to know or understand your personal journey…and I certainly don’t make light of it, but I do trust that the only Hope worth holding onto is Jesus.

Trust in Him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to Him, for God is our refuge.  Psalm 62:8

No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. Romans 8:37

I have set the Lord before me, because he is at my right hand, I shall not be shaken. Psalm 16:8

But this I call to mind, and therefore I have hope!  The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases, his mercies never come to an end, they are new every morning, great is your faithfulness.  “The Lord is my portion,” says my soul, “therefore I will hope in him.”  Lamentations 3:21-24

 

Living With Brokenness For 827 Days…

How I wish things could be…

Living with brokenness for 827 days, 118 weeks, 27 months is challenging and time consuming.  It’s exhausting.  Missing Warren and wishing I could go back…Wondering how I can possibly do this for another day or week, much less another 800 days.

I want to hear his voice, I want to feel his arm around me, I want to smell his “scent”.  I want him to be here for Grace.  I want him to give her advice about high school, boys, and all the other things her big brother  would do.  I don’t want her to be an only child, wishing for her brother to still be here.  I don’t want the “handshake” they had together to be something she now does in the air…alone.  I hate when she goes down the street to shoot hoops all by herself.

I want Bill to have his son.  I don’t want Bill left alone at the house while Grace and I do cheer.  I want them hunting together or playing baseball.  I want Bill to be having grown up, mature conversations with his boy about driving and dating and college.  I don’t want Bill getting ready for baseball season…alone, without Warren.

I wish I was posting a picture of him and a date at the formal from last weekend or getting ready for the Sweet 16 dance.

I struggle with the realization that Grace has now passed him in age.  Her older brother is now younger than she is.  It’s like all of a sudden we have no frame of reference.  Everything is new for us…graduating 8th grade, high school, driving.  It’s weird and hard to explain.

On one hand it’s like we are leaving him behind.  As we leave middle school and the memories of the last couple years behind, I feel like we leave a part of us as well.  Although going back was so difficult after Warren died..it’s all we’ve known and it almost brings me comfort to be where he last was..A new school, means new memories that don’t include him.

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“various trials”

As time keeps ticking and we wake to face another day..we are forced to face many other life issues…

We are not immune to life’s other “various trials”.

I remember thinking right after Warren died that surely we would get a “break”…We did not, and have not.  I could list major obstacles and challenges that have come our way just in the last 6 months.  Parenting and marriage is hard when operating from a very broken place.  Juggling time and responsibilities bring stress and sleepless nights.

In the beginning we gave ourselves a bit of a break, knowing people would understand (or hoping they would)…But now, it’s just different

I don’t know if the statement “Time Heals” is accurate, but “Life Goes On” certainly is!

Count it all joy, my brothers, when you face trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. (James 1:2-4)

Not the Only One With Stuff…

I have found myself on my knees praying and asking God to “please help us”!  That may sound a bit dramatic, but the truth is I can’t face any of this alone.  Not the “normal” stuff, not the hurt, not being a mother, not being a wife…and on and on!

In my weakness, the above paragraphs of “how I wish things could be”…would always take over and despair would set in (and believe me it happens)

But as I have cried and worked through some things..I also know I’m not the only one with “STUFF”

I’ve been reading and following Katherine and Jay Wolf and reading their book Hope Heals.  www.hopeheals.com 

Katherine suffered a massive brain stem stroke and lives with many physical disabilities.  She is paralyzed on 1/2 her body and is in a wheelchair.

Even in her own suffering she realizes… just because you’re not in a wheelchair doesn’t mean you don’t face seasons of life where you feel stuck or paralyzed with no way out…

Oh, how often life has not turned out the way we planned.

All of our suffering is unique and cannot be compared..However, no matter the specifics of our circumstances there is only one answerone hope and that is Jesus.  We all might journey differently to land here, but no matter your hurt, or fear, or the unbearable situation you face….there is ONE Hope, One salvation, One Jesus and He cares about YOU and me!

So, as I scrolled through Instagram earlier and saw a precious newborn facing certain challenges his sweet momma never dreamed they would …I am reminded of the one thing that most often connects us ~ our pain and brokenness.

Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need. (Hebrews 4:16)

For this light and momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison.  (2 Corinthians 4:17)

Why are you downcast O my soul and why are you disquieted within me?  Hope in God.  For I shall again praise Him.  He is my help and my God. (Psalm 42:5,11 43:5)

 

November, Again…

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“Quiet is scary…I miss him so much.  Warren Austin Barfield.  Even to write his name hurts my whole body…I can’t breathe.

Is. 40:31 But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.

…but those who HOPE in the Lord…*My hope is in you Lord

will renew their strength…praying my strength is renewed.  My “normal” life is at a standstill…people and things are moving all around me..but not me..to move forward means to accept Warren is gone…that hurts too much.  Give me strength to Rise up!

they will soar on wings like eagles...oh to “soar”..to feel the wind in my face, to be held.  I want to soar on wings….

they will run and not grow weary…I am SO tired.  Just getting out of bed is exhausting, putting on my “face” is exhausting, lunch with friends is exhausting, crying is exhausting, not crying is exhausting….

they will walk and not faint...will I ever be “awake” again??  Can I ever go back to everyday things and not grow weary or faint???  If I trust and hold onto His Promise here in Isaiah 40…then YES!

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I trust you Lord…Psalm 115   

Thank you Warren for this most basic truth..TRUST!  It’s not easy but I TRUST in the HOPE of the Lord!!”

 

 


11-11-15 Wednesday..

Jesus flood our hearts with LIGHT!!!  Give us understanding of the confident HOPE we have in you!

We are your holy people-Your rich and glorious inheritance….

Oh Lord Jesus, not me but YOU!  Today has been so “random”…good, busy, productive, just feeling like I can’t breathe..tired.

The wind is blowing outside bringing in a cold front!!

Blow Holy Spirit a new and fresh “thing”….

Give us abundance, freedom, MORE of Jesus!!!


It’s November….Again.  Another holiday season without my boy.  Another Thanksgiving, another Christmas, another hard, another 23rd & 24th..this time marking 2 years since Warren left this earth and made it Home.  Again…it seems almost unbearable.  Again, I am reminded that it is here, in this brokenness I find Jesus.  Again…and again it’s JUST JESUS.

As complicated as this world wants to make things….at the end of the day…at the end of myself…I find what is unchanging…and it is Jesus.

The memories still bring tears that sting…the future without Warren still scares me…

But I love the Lord, because he has heard me…He has heard my pleas for mercy.  Because he has inclined his ear to me, I will call on him as long as I live.  (Ps. 116:1-2)

I am thankful today..being able to look back…I have hesitated to go back and read my journals because I can’t bear to remember how hard this journey has been.  But today I am reminded that He was there, even a week after leaving the cemetery…a year ago today…He was ushering in a “new” thing.  He has always been and will always be…ENOUGH for me

“I still believe…Warren Austin Barfield…mom still BELIEVES!!”

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He leads, He restores, He prepares…

The Lord is my shepherd I shall not want.  He makes me lie down in green pastures.  He leads me beside still waters.  He restores my soul.  He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.  Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies, you anoint my head with oil;  my cup overflows.  Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

Psalm 23


I was sitting here this morning overwhelmed.  Overwhelmed with grief and how it complicates everyday life.  I won’t go into all of it, but the stress of family, finances, activities, obligations etc can take a real toll on a weary soul.

Living life with grief, a scattered brain, unanswered texts, missed appointments, calls that need to be returned, thank you notes that need to be written, tasks and chores left undone, and friendships that need tending to….have me before the Lord asking for MORE of Him during this season.  I need Him now more than yesterday and I am more thankful today for sweet friends and family that have endured the uncertainty of this journey and encouraged me more than you may ever know!  I am LOVED.  I am grateful.

I was blessed to be part of a sweet time of prayer and praise last night with a dear friend whose husband is Home with the Lord after battling brain cancer.  I listened to the honest, simple prayers of 13 & 14 year old girls as they prayed over their friend who misses her Daddy.  I love that this family absolutely knows where their help comes from, and the LIGHT that shines from their testimony is inspiring to me.  There was an unexplainable peace and even joy as we gathered in the front yard declaring that Jesus is still enough in the middle of a storm.  It is only because of Jesus that we can both mourn and rejoice during our suffering here on earth.

I think God wants us to live transparent and vulnerable.  I believe we are to live in FREEDOM, because in Christ we are VICTORIOUS!!  (..this is just me…preaching much needed truths to my heart 🙂  )

Please Jesus help us to remember that today, and flood us with MORE of you and give us opportunity to share this with others that need more than what this world can offer.

My prayer is that I would not believe the lies of the enemy as he tries to convince me that in my grief “I can’t….” or “that’s too hard…”  I want to keep moving from ‘here to THERE’…show us how to keep moving and to point others to You.  It’s just JESUS.

Jesus.  Jesus.  Jesus


We  still need your help to get our kids sponsored!

We would  be SO grateful if you would pray about your involvement and how God might be able to use you.

So many times in the past… opportunities fell right into my lap that I basically ignored.  I often put things off or assumed someone else would do it.  Please don’t miss the blessing!

Thank you in advance for  praying with us that each of these boys will get sponsored!

The deadline is Monday OCTOBER 3!!

https://web.familylegacy.com/give/ambassadors/69111 (Grace’s boys) ** really wanting to get her boys sponsored 🙂

https://web.familylegacy.com/give/ambassadors/68506 (Julie’s boys)

https://web.familylegacy.com/give/ambassadors/69110 (Bill’s boys)

View More: http://familylegacy.pass.us/weekfour2016

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Storm before the calm…

(journal entry 8/20)

Saturday morning before school starts…heavy heart searching for some relief

Thinking about Grace’s first day in 8th grade and how she will feel walking into the 8th grade building…How will her teachers treat her?  She doesn’t want special attention…but it’s hard to ignore the fact that some of her teachers were the last teachers Warren ever had.

Will seeing his locker be difficult..?

How to face another day where Warren’s absence seems to be more obvious and painful

Everything about summer ending and school beginning is not at all how it should be for our family …  Jesus help

(journal entry 8/21)

School starts tomorrow…I can’t stop crying…trying to hide the tears

Jesus help me to rise up!

Jesus help me to keep my focus on You.

The last 3 or 4 days have been waves and waves of emotion…lots and lots of tears.  The rollercoaster of ups and downs has been exhausting.  My heart has been victim to to the unrelenting pain  of missing Warren and wishing so much that he was here to start his sophomore year.

Surreal..

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Helping Grace get ready for 8th grade…so exciting and yet so surreal.  This will be the year she passes Warren in school and age.  She will do things he never got the chance to do…8th grade dance, planning for HS etc.  Everything about the next few months will be especially hard as we get closer to November 24th.  It’s just hard to wrap my brain around the fact that 2 years ago we were living life like we had years and years of time ahead of us…but in reality we had 94 days, 3 months and 2 days, 66 week days & 28 weekend days…

Sometimes I wish I’d known…not all the details, but enough to know I needed to make each minute of every day count.  But that’s crazy!  Of course I wouldn’t have wanted to know, but I often wonder how much time I wasted on things that absolutely did not matter…It’s a slippery slope when I let myself think this way-regret & guilt are not fun ever, but especially when you can’t go back and make things “right”.

No regrets…

So….Live with no regrets! Love deeply..tell them…OFTEN!  Hug…OFTEN! (no matter how old they are)  Laugh…Ask questions…Talk at dinner…Put love notes in their lunch (no matter how old they are 🙂 )  Tuck them in at night and snuggle in the morning to wake them up!  And most importantly, if you don’t already, talk to them about Jesus!!!!!

Serve Jesus together…go to church and worship together…pray together, read your Bible together.  They aren’t too young OR too old!!  This is one regret you DON’T want to have!

(and…this doesn’t apply just to your children, but your spouse, your family and friends…LOVE them well and LOVE Jesus with everything you’ve got!)

Hmmm…not even sure I meant to travel down that road, but maybe I needed the reminder to make the most of my days with Jesus…


 

First Day of 8th Grade…

IMG_0361We did it!!!  HE did it…. If you could see my face and hear my voice when I say that “He did it!!”  you would know that a huge “AMEN!” is in order….  Everything that took place in this house on Monday morning was just like yours. Well…maybe…we take LOTS of pictures (lawwwts), so that might be different 😉  But we woke up extra early, ate a good breakfast (which may or may not happen on a regular basis), had all our supplies ready, and took ‘first day’ pics!  All of this with NO tears…and believe me when I say tears are good and healthy and I should knowI cry all the timehowever, Grace and Bill do not, so it was such a gift to me (and them) for mom to not cry!!  Thank you Jesus!

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Thank you Jesus for the “storm” before the “calm”… If I was judging how Monday would go based on Saturday and Sunday…it wasn’t going to be good.  Instead, His grace was sufficient & we each experienced it beyond measure, and we had a “normal” day.

Opportunity and Courage…

No doubt this school year will bring difficult days as well as days filled with MORE of Jesus… However, whether in the middle of a storm or calm, we will praise him.  Maybe through tears or even gritted teeth, but it’s only because of Jesus that we can face either.

Praying this school year brings more opportunity to Rise Up & Shine (to be radiant with the glory of the Lord   Is. 60:1) and the courage to share our faith.

Live wisely among those who are not believers, and make the most of every opportunity.  Let your conversation be gracious and attractive, so that you will have the right response for everyone.  Col. 4:5-6

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Remembering…

So, I’m trying to organize pictures… which is not an easy task!

I am so thankful for all the photos we have but I often get overwhelmed as I try to sift through them.  With i cloud, drop box, Facebook & Instagram I feel like I’ve got pictures all over the place.

“all over the place..”  Not only does that describe the state of our family pictures, but my emotions these days!!  It seems to be that more often than not, I can’t think clearly.  My daily tasks take me longer to accomplish (if they get accomplished!).  When asked, “What do you have going on this week..?”  I genuinely can’t remember, although every day seems busy.  I feel like my head is constantly spinning with ‘to-do’ lists, and I’m doing good to take care of the necessities ….grocery shopping, getting Grace to and from school and cheer, being a wife to Bill…I mean, if we’ve got food and toilet paper, its a good day!

This may be a bit exaggerated, but things do seem to be moving all around me, while I’m still 2 steps behind..always playing catch-up and never feeling on top of things.

Grieving is a full time job!!

15 months-457 days-65 weeks

That’s how long its been since Warren went to Heaven.  Crazy!  Crazy!  Crazy!  I miss him so much!!!  Sometimes I feel like missing him is the only constant in my day… A year and 3 months and my heart aches and my thoughts are consumed with the reality of him not being here.

I don’t typically know how many days its been since he went to Heaven….some days it feels like it was yesterday, while others feel like it was forever ago.  All I know, is that being 3 months into year 2, I miss him the same as I did 457 days ago.  Has anything changed?  Yes… But not how much we wish Warren were still here with us!

What has changed is the fact that I have 457 days of God’s faithfulness behind me!!!

Today in my daily devotional (Heaven On Earth) the title was ‘Hang On to Hope’…. 

We want you to know what will happen…so you will not grieve like people who have no hope.          (1 Thessalonians 4:13)

Biblical Hope:’It’s present enjoyment of a future reality, an active looking forward to what we know to be true.  It’s the truth of the future in our hearts today.’

‘Whatever it takes, cultivate HOPE.  God is bigger and better than any circumstance.  Find his promise and purpose in everything.  And hang on to HOPE against everything that tries to steal it from you.’ (from Heaven On Earth)

I believe in His promises Today, because He was faithful yesterday..and I believe He will be faithful tomorrow, because He will be faithful TODAY!  Talk about a Truth to get lost in…His faithfulness!!!

Remember those who led you, who spoke the word of God to you; and considering the result of their conduct, imitate their faith. 8 Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.         (Hebrews 13:7,8)

Remembering how He has been faithful is so important…. To remember and recall all that God has done, confirms His sovereignty over our life and reminds me that Warren’s death has not been wasted.  God is working … all of it…for HIS GLORY!

  So grateful for the MANY ways our friends and family continue to love on us…..We love you more than you will ever know!!

I’m a visual person…so here are a few pictures to SEE how God has been faithful over the last couple of months!!

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Delivering turkeys with friends for Family Point Resources
Random Acts of Kindness in honor of WB…

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Thanking Big Tex Trees for helping get a tree planted last year in honor of Warren’s bday!
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Warren’s friends helped at the SBMSA fields where he used to play!
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Special thank you to Valerie at Jovi Printing for helping us with #warrenwariors  T-shirts !
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Mulching and adding a new bow to the tree planted at MMS in Warren’s memory!
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Delivering Warren’s favorite…donut holes to boys at the bus stop!
Family and friends posting photos wearing their camo!!

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I had simply “mentioned” (weeks before the 24th) wanting this day to be full of “light”… So…..Special friends came over to decorate both inside and outside our home.  Paper luminary bags with personal messages covered our front yard!  We even have the decorative lights still hanging inside our house.  🙂
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A sweet group of Warren’s friends came over on the 23rd to share memories, pray and encourage one another!  We were so very touched by this….we laughed and cried and LOVED all the stories!

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This was a very special time for Grace to be surrounded with friends!  It is so important to us that Warren not be forgotten…this was a perfect way to keep his memory alive!  Thank you!  

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The morning of the 24th, we woke up early to go get donuts from Krispy Kreme!  At one point Grace and I were sitting in the car, we looked up and literally could not believe what we were seeing.  It was the most beautiful sunrise!!  It was absolutely spectacular!  I have no doubt this was God’s way of wrapping us up in His loving arms…blanketing us with His tender mercy and grace!  

Oh, the kindness of a good, good Father that loves us so well!

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Our neighbor took this picture of the sunrise over our house…

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After Warren went to Heaven, our community tied blue bows all around our neighborhood in honor of Warren.  One evening, we were driving home and a precious friend of Warren’s and her Dad were writing a verse and ‘WB’ on the window of this vacant building.  A year later, it is still there…I drive by it at least once a day and it warms my heart!  

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Balloon Release….

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Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail.  

They are new every morning

Great is your faithfulness.

Lamentations 3:22-23