Storm before the calm…

(journal entry 8/20)

Saturday morning before school starts…heavy heart searching for some relief

Thinking about Grace’s first day in 8th grade and how she will feel walking into the 8th grade building…How will her teachers treat her?  She doesn’t want special attention…but it’s hard to ignore the fact that some of her teachers were the last teachers Warren ever had.

Will seeing his locker be difficult..?

How to face another day where Warren’s absence seems to be more obvious and painful

Everything about summer ending and school beginning is not at all how it should be for our family …  Jesus help

(journal entry 8/21)

School starts tomorrow…I can’t stop crying…trying to hide the tears

Jesus help me to rise up!

Jesus help me to keep my focus on You.

The last 3 or 4 days have been waves and waves of emotion…lots and lots of tears.  The rollercoaster of ups and downs has been exhausting.  My heart has been victim to to the unrelenting pain  of missing Warren and wishing so much that he was here to start his sophomore year.

Surreal..

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August 2014

Helping Grace get ready for 8th grade…so exciting and yet so surreal.  This will be the year she passes Warren in school and age.  She will do things he never got the chance to do…8th grade dance, planning for HS etc.  Everything about the next few months will be especially hard as we get closer to November 24th.  It’s just hard to wrap my brain around the fact that 2 years ago we were living life like we had years and years of time ahead of us…but in reality we had 94 days, 3 months and 2 days, 66 week days & 28 weekend days…

Sometimes I wish I’d known…not all the details, but enough to know I needed to make each minute of every day count.  But that’s crazy!  Of course I wouldn’t have wanted to know, but I often wonder how much time I wasted on things that absolutely did not matter…It’s a slippery slope when I let myself think this way-regret & guilt are not fun ever, but especially when you can’t go back and make things “right”.

No regrets…

So….Live with no regrets! Love deeply..tell them…OFTEN!  Hug…OFTEN! (no matter how old they are)  Laugh…Ask questions…Talk at dinner…Put love notes in their lunch (no matter how old they are 🙂 )  Tuck them in at night and snuggle in the morning to wake them up!  And most importantly, if you don’t already, talk to them about Jesus!!!!!

Serve Jesus together…go to church and worship together…pray together, read your Bible together.  They aren’t too young OR too old!!  This is one regret you DON’T want to have!

(and…this doesn’t apply just to your children, but your spouse, your family and friends…LOVE them well and LOVE Jesus with everything you’ve got!)

Hmmm…not even sure I meant to travel down that road, but maybe I needed the reminder to make the most of my days with Jesus…


 

First Day of 8th Grade…

IMG_0361We did it!!!  HE did it…. If you could see my face and hear my voice when I say that “He did it!!”  you would know that a huge “AMEN!” is in order….  Everything that took place in this house on Monday morning was just like yours. Well…maybe…we take LOTS of pictures (lawwwts), so that might be different 😉  But we woke up extra early, ate a good breakfast (which may or may not happen on a regular basis), had all our supplies ready, and took ‘first day’ pics!  All of this with NO tears…and believe me when I say tears are good and healthy and I should knowI cry all the timehowever, Grace and Bill do not, so it was such a gift to me (and them) for mom to not cry!!  Thank you Jesus!

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Thank you Jesus for the “storm” before the “calm”… If I was judging how Monday would go based on Saturday and Sunday…it wasn’t going to be good.  Instead, His grace was sufficient & we each experienced it beyond measure, and we had a “normal” day.

Opportunity and Courage…

No doubt this school year will bring difficult days as well as days filled with MORE of Jesus… However, whether in the middle of a storm or calm, we will praise him.  Maybe through tears or even gritted teeth, but it’s only because of Jesus that we can face either.

Praying this school year brings more opportunity to Rise Up & Shine (to be radiant with the glory of the Lord   Is. 60:1) and the courage to share our faith.

Live wisely among those who are not believers, and make the most of every opportunity.  Let your conversation be gracious and attractive, so that you will have the right response for everyone.  Col. 4:5-6

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10 thoughts on “Storm before the calm…

  1. Candice August 23, 2016 / 7:30 pm

    Love this. Love you. #mana #hedidit #morethanenough #joy #hope #runtowardstheroar

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    • julie August 23, 2016 / 7:58 pm

      You!! Love you and thank you. #jesusisenough #heavenisbetter #warrenswarriors

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  2. Cathy Patton August 24, 2016 / 1:33 am

    I am weeping with you. 34 yrs ago the Lord gave me John 16:23-25
    When I saw my baby in uterine without a heartbeat and learned the same day my mother-in/law had cancer and only a few months to live . It reads in the Philips version:
    Now you are going through pain but I will see you again and your hearts will thrill with joy … And on that day you will have no questions.
    What a relief … And what a promise…praying you are knowing the Lord’s arms are around you and He weeps with you. That is true comfort that no one can bring to your deepest pain.

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  3. Kelly August 24, 2016 / 7:42 am

    my love, thoughts and prayers, remain with all of you…..

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  4. melmccracken83 August 24, 2016 / 1:52 pm

    Love you so, so much! Miss him so much. Grace is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing so much with so many. I know Jesus is using you. He is faithful. Love you!

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    • julie August 24, 2016 / 4:18 pm

      Love you so much sweet sister!! Miss him more than I have words to say…

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  5. Ruth Stratton (teacher friend of Melanie) August 24, 2016 / 1:58 pm

    Beautiful words and pictures. Just like Jesus, Warren is with you all, standing next to you and smiling, because he is so very proud of all three of you!

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  6. Wanda Strappazon August 24, 2016 / 3:48 pm

    That was beautiful, Julie. Thanks for sharing.

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  7. Mona Lightfoot-Doucet September 22, 2016 / 7:38 pm

    Julie,
    I have been reading your blog for a long time now (many many times with tears streaming down my face), but at the same time in admiration of the obviously wonderful woman you are. You and Bill are often in my thoughts and in my prayers. Your faith brings me even closer to God. You’re a blessing to many. Praying God blesses you, Bill, and all of your family abundantly, and that He restores your peace.
    Hugs from me to you and Bill,
    Mona

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